Many people will walk in and out of your life but only true friends leave footprints in your heart.
Haiza already had another friends in the kindergarten since she went to that kindergarten early than me. Haiza was nice to me but she only friended with me during my kindergarten time because after we got in the primary school she was in a different class. Next, when I was standard one I remember my friend was Nur Nafisah. We were in the same class, 1 Jaya. She was my first best friend. She made me want to go to school because I want to meet and friend with her. We made our homework together when our teacher had not entered the class yet. She was short and a little cute ones, she would be bullied by the boys and I was the one would defend her. I knew her as a girl that was so cheerful until one day we had a deep conversation.
She told me about a big secret in her life I would never imagine that she went through that. I mean behind her smile and all she was actually hiding her pain. She was the youngest child in the family but she was already matured than people think she was. I never thought at really young age someone would through all that. I remember that day after she told me about her problems, we were crying as I watched her going back home walking. I was always thinking about her and hoping she was happy. Move on to standard two, my friend was still Nafisah. I was in the same class again 2 Jaya with her. After knowing her story, I always wanted to take care of her and I was also happy when I was with her.
I always had a hope that she will always be my friend forever. I guess she never knew that I really took her as someone important in my life in that time. Move to standard three, we got in the different class. Early in the year, during recess I had always been looking and waiting her outside her class. From what I saw, she was really happy with another group of friends. I had felt that I was such a disturbance for her to be with her friends. They loved to play hide and seek during recess so she needed to join them every time. When I went to her she was busy playing with her another friends. After awhile I had learnt that she got new friends that would be replaced me. I send her a lot of letters and as days went by we only replied letter to each other.
Eventually, I felt like she didn't want to be friend with me and I stopped trying reached out to her. After that I tried to search someone new and forgot about her, that's when I knew Azlina Ayob, Alisha Azizan, Aznee Syafiqa and Fazira. They were my first group of friends/first gang. Everyone in this group had their own characteristics. Azlina which we called her as Alin was the one who such a gengster, never liked boys, hard to smile and always stay in one place. Aznee was such an assistant to Alin. It could be said whatever Alin sayings, Aznee had to always follow her. Aznee was a funny girl and the one who would like to calm everyone. While Fazira, I did not know she was belonged to this group or not but she had always ignored us and bickered with Alin.
Fazira always felt dissatified with Alin but Alin who such a hard headed ones would never care what Fazira thought of her but another three of us had always comforted Fazira as she didn't have another friends and such a loner. We did welcome her in the group but she who was the one did not want to really get involve with us. The last person in the group was Alisha. She was a nice person. She was a new student from Kedah but we really got along well. She was the one I talk to the most. She seated beside me and we would be doing everything together first. Each of them gave me a lesson. Alin teached me to become heartless and never looked and had feeling at the boys (i guess i was affected until now ha).
Alisha teached me if you were nice to people, the chance people would remember you was high (that's why i remember her). Aznee teached me that comforting people was the best way to keep up with the friendship. Tbh with this gang I had so much fun because we liked to play games. Alisha and me always finished the work given by the teacher early. So after that we would ask Alin and Aznee to play together. The thing was they always late in completing the work so we would have to wait. Alin was seated behind me so I would disturb her doing the work and she would get mad at me. At last, she fed up and she would copy our work hahahaha. Aznee such a straight person would follow what Alin did. Seriously I miss them I hope they know it that I still remember those memories in 3 Anggun but it would be creepy since they don't even remember me duh wtf.
I remember that time I found Alin's fb and I said that I miss her and she said ok -.- lol this girl u dont do this to me. She seemed did not remember our memories together and I had seen her somewhere riding motorcycle with a boy sometime ago. I was like lol is dat Alin I knew?!!!!! She might have a boyfriend but me..... still heartless as u are in standard 3 lol. And Alisha..... talk about Alisha! This girl ha did not remember me at all. Like at all. I did not know why but after years lost of contact with her I was suddenly thinking of her. I was like ok I need to find her. Finally, I had found her ig and I almost teared up nervously thinking how to greet her. And I did greet her and she did not even reply to me. Who do you think you are hah!!!!
But if one day any of my friends suddenly remembered me and talked to me, I will happily talk to them. About Aznee, I really lost contact with her after standard 3 I guess she did not remember me at all duh..... it's ok my frens u guys still in my heart. Move to standard four, my gang and I was separated I got in the different class. They seemed getting new friends and I was forgotten again. I was tired to get friends as I knew the result that I would be alone again. In the class 4 Rajin, I really did not want to be friend with anybody and enjoy myself alone. My class teacher, Ustazah Hasniza arranged our seat in the class so I was placed at the back near the door in the class hah the best chance for me to get away from people like seriously yeah.
Ustazah arranged our seating like alternating between girls and boys. I was placed beside Zamzuri. Zamzuri did not really talk and only talk to Radhi, the boy in front of me. Farzana Shamsuri was seated in front of Zamzuri. I did not know why she loved to talk to me and seriously I found her annoying as I did not want to talk to anyone. I was thinking why she had not talked to Adiba the person next to her???????!!!! Days after days, I slowly liked to talk to Farzana because she would always try so hard to make me speak. Radhi who seated beside her always wanted to mess up with her and she would get mad at him while me and Zamzuri would laugh looking they were bickering. Zamzuri and me also became comfortable with each other.
One day, Farzana revealed to us that she liked Zamzuri because he was a nice boy and very different from Radhi. After that, Radhi would tease her every time and that actually made us four people closed to each other. Eventually I found that I was happy when I was together with them and every day there would be a scene made by Farzana and Radhi. We were always talking, talking and talking but Zamzuri and me mostly would only watch and laugh but only one subject that we would shut up which was during mathematics Teacher Ros Abidah lol who dared play with her u dont lol! It could be said that I had a lot of best moment with them. I thought I saw Zamzuri the other day lol I think he has not changed I mean like he is the same person I know from standard four?? I did not know if he still remembers me. Wutevs. Move to standard five, I was seriously used to the fact that I had to change friend every year but still I do remember each of them.
In 5 Indah, I was friend with Huda Adnan and Wan Moni Syafika. I was also friend with Fatin Anisah. But mostly I spend my time with Huda and Moni. They were good and discipline. Always tried to complete the work on time and never talked before settling everything. After awhile, there was a new student coming seated beside me, her name was Anis Amila from Kelantan. Knowing that she was from Kelantan we got along really well. She said she often moved one place to another. She really had no friend and she said that I was really nice to her. She invited me to come to her house but I was too shy to go. Eventually, I became more closed to Anis Amila rather than Huda and Moni. But they were ok with it since she got no friend and Huda and Moni were more closed with each other than me.
Fatin my another friend even though she seated at another place and friend with other people, she still sometimes went talking to me. Ah I was friend with Fatin since I was in 4 Rajin we became closed because we got no top 3 alternately in the class. If not me, it was Fatin, Divenes or Syafiq. If not Syafiq then it was me, Divenes, Fatin or Syafiq. That's it! At the end of year when I was standard 5, Anis Amila told me that she got to move to another place again. I was so sad at the moment and she also did not want to separate with me. She gave me her number but I never contact her so we lost contact just like that. I was very emotional knowing that at least I was not friend with my friends before because they got in another class or had other friends but Anis Amila I knew that I had never seen her again in my life.
I tried to search her in social medias but no one seemed looking like her. I hope if I found her sm later she will remember me!!!! not like alisha -____- Move to standard 6, my friend which one and only best friend I have until now is Lissa Asyura! I remember the first time I looked at her I thought of this girl must be soft and nice. Then after awhile, I heard her voice ok that sounded like a boy. I mean like her face did not suit with her face lol. Hahahaha but now her voice is more girly different from what I had heard before. Ok I guess that's all I only throwback my friends during my kindergarten and primary school. I AM So tired thinking of them forgetting me sobs sobs ;')
p/s; i moved to another school during the secondary school. so i dont meet them since then except lissa. so the chance they remember me is very least T-T
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